The letter exercise filled my heart with joy and, for me, the apology part some how became an issue that was redeemable and I felt like I was able to fellowship with God and love him and talk to him in a way that I for so long have failed to do. I want to share my letter to Abba Father if that is ok:
Abba Father-
Thank you so much for my life. Daddy thank you for the people you have put in my life that I have struggled to love. Thank you for the friends you have put in my life that show me what love is. Thank you for Lauren and her heart of gold. Thank you for the example of Christ she is for the kids. Thank you for Jonathan and his struggles. Thank you for giving him the courage to be so genuinely real in a fake and plastic world. Thank you for Clint and his drive to be a man of you. Thank you for his leadership and encouragement. Thank you for Chris and his humor. God I praise you for allowing me to see the joy you have given Chris and I thank you for working through him to share that joy with me. Thank you for Reid and his passion. Thank you for putting him in my life to give me an example of what overwhelming Christ-passion looks like.
Daddy, thank you for my family. Thank you for a father who loves every part of me; a daddy who leads me to you; a daddy who is like you. Thank you for my mom and her never-ending joy in life. Thank you for using my mom as an example of a Godly women who chooses to be positive and live life with a hope that is beyond this world. Thank you for a sister that test me and shows me the true meaning of love; for a sister who struggles but so desires you in her heart. Thank you for a brother who drives me crazy. Thank you for his perseverance in life. He has taught me what it means to never give up. Thank you for a sister-in-law and a nephew who have taught me true devotion through the love they show my brother. Thank you Daddy, Abba Father, for my life.
Dad, I am sorry for judging people because of my own insecurities. I am sorry for assuming things I know nothing about are the truth of the matter. I am sorry for the failures in my past to live up to the Holy life you have called me to as a woman of you. Daddy I am sorry for falling short and disappointing you.
Forgive me.
1.11.2006
1.07.2006
The 90s...
You know you're a 90's kid if...
>You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!"
>You can sing the rap to "The Fresh Prince Of Bel Air"
>You've worn skorts and felt stylish.
>You yearned to be part of the Baby-Sitters club.
>You use to love playing with your My Little Pet Shop.
>You know that "WOAH" comes from Joey from "Blossom" and that "How Rude!" comes from Stephanie from "Full House."
>You remember when it was actually worth getting up earlyon a Saturday to watch cartoons.
>You wore a ponytail on the side of your head and had fluffed bangs.
>You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.
>You remember reading "Goosebumps."
>You know the profound meaning of "Wax on, wax off."
>You have pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.
>You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.
>You remember the craze then the banning of slap bracelets.
>You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence... Not...
>You knew that Kimberly, the pink ranger, and Tommy, the green ranger, were meant to be together.
>You remember "I've fallen and I can't get up"
>You remember going to the skating rink before there were i
nline skates
>You ever got injured on a Slip 'n' Slide.
>You wore socks over leggings scrunched down."
>You can finish.
.."Miss Mary Mack, Mack, Mack, all dressed in black, black, black..."
>You remember boom boxes vs. cd players.
>You knew what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare."
>You remember Alf, the little brown alien from Melmac and Vicki the Robot from "My Little Wonder."
>You remember New Kids on The Block when they were cool.
>You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By The Bell."
>You played and or collected "Pogs."
>You used to pretend to be a MIGHTY MORPHIN Power Ranger >You owned a Skip It.
>You had at least one GigaPet or NanoBaby and brought it everywhere.
>You watched the original Care Bears, My Little Pony, and Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles.
>All your school supplies were "Lisa Frank" brand. (pencils, notebooks, binders, etc.)
>You used to wear those stick on earrings, not only on your ears, but at the corners of your eyes.
>You remember a time before the WB.
>You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!"
>You can sing the rap to "The Fresh Prince Of Bel Air"
>You've worn skorts and felt stylish.
>You yearned to be part of the Baby-Sitters club.
>You use to love playing with your My Little Pet Shop.
>You know that "WOAH" comes from Joey from "Blossom" and that "How Rude!" comes from Stephanie from "Full House."
>You remember when it was actually worth getting up earlyon a Saturday to watch cartoons.
>You wore a ponytail on the side of your head and had fluffed bangs.
>You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.
>You remember reading "Goosebumps."
>You know the profound meaning of "Wax on, wax off."
>You have pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.
>You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.
>You remember the craze then the banning of slap bracelets.
>You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence... Not...
>You knew that Kimberly, the pink ranger, and Tommy, the green ranger, were meant to be together.
>You remember "I've fallen and I can't get up"
>You remember going to the skating rink before there were i
nline skates>You ever got injured on a Slip 'n' Slide.
>You wore socks over leggings scrunched down."
>You can finish.
.."Miss Mary Mack, Mack, Mack, all dressed in black, black, black..." >You remember boom boxes vs. cd players.
>You knew what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare."
>You remember Alf, the little brown alien from Melmac and Vicki the Robot from "My Little Wonder."
>You remember New Kids on The Block when they were cool.
>You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By The Bell."
>You played and or collected "Pogs."
>You used to pretend to be a MIGHTY MORPHIN Power Ranger >You owned a Skip It.
>You had at least one GigaPet or NanoBaby and brought it everywhere.
>You watched the original Care Bears, My Little Pony, and Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles.
>All your school supplies were "Lisa Frank" brand. (pencils, notebooks, binders, etc.)
>You used to wear those stick on earrings, not only on your ears, but at the corners of your eyes.
>You remember a time before the WB.
>You've gotten creeped out by "Are You Afraid of the Dark?"
>You thought it would be so cool to be Alex Mack.
>You know the Macarena by heart."
>Talk to the hand" ... enough said
What do you remember? Be Blessed!!!
1.05.2006
The Box Car Children
When I was younger I read the Box Car Children books. To be perfectly honest I cannot remember what they were about but I remember owning a ton of them and reading them-not all the time but on a fairly consistent basis. I also read from the Babysitters Club and Sweet Valley High books.
Now my reading consist of books titled, Real Sex, The Ministry of Nurture, Blue Like Jazz, Velvet Elvis and so on. While these books are amazing and have taugh
t me a lot, there is a part of me that misses the innocence of the Box Car Children. I want to read them again and know what they are about. I want to read them to my kids someday.The books I missed out on when I was little were the Chronicles of Narnia Books. I have seen the new movie, twice now. I want to read the books. I ask for them for Christmas but they are kind of expensive to get the whole series. For New Years lunch we went over to a friends house and the little boy and his mom were reading through The Lion Witch and the Wardrobe. I wanted so badly to begin
reading it but I am a big fan of doing things in order and The LWW is the second book in the series. I was able to make it for about 20 min before temptation overtook me and I began to read. I loved it. I read about 30 pages before they made me put it down and eat lunch.I want to read them all. I have not enjoyed reading for a long time but since last summer I feel like I am always reading a book; by choice.
Reading is good for you. If you want me to recommend you a book let me know. I've got a few you can check out..."but you don't have to take my word for it." :o)
Be Blessed!!!
1.04.2006
Unforgettable Faces...
....but really, who
o would want to forget them? Kevin, Zack, A.C., Randy, Cory. Those were the days ladies! You could turn on the T.V. at just about any time of day and see one of these hunk-a-hunk-a-burnin' loves! Whether it was The Wonder Years, Saved By The Bell, Home Improvement or Boy Meets World, T.V. when we were younger was at it's best.
I was looking back in my old yearbooks from Jr. High and High School today and just remembering what it use to be like. The thing that stuck out the most were those highlighted hearts I had drawn around the faces of the "loves of my life." Yes, that's plur
al. Apparently I was a player.
I'm convinced that I only knew two guys total in Jr. High so the others were just "dream guys," like those you see pictured here. Sometimes I wish I could just go back and be a kid. I wish I could have crushes and get my best friend to find out if the guy likes me. I wish I could go spend the night at a friends house and make videos of us singing and dancing with batons and ribbons. I wish I could talk on the phone for hours and not be bothered with what I have to do. I wish I could dream innocently knowing that I had years before those dreams would be potential realities.
But alas, here I stand at the threshold of adulthood. Those dreams are more realistic, closer to realities. While I still wish I could marry Cory Matthews, or at least a guy like him, I realize that life is not like Saved By The Bell, you do have to go to class, you will be tested and the principle will not always be your best friend.
While being home it has at times felt like a task, but improvement has taken place. My family loves each other. Although no one has ever glued their head to a table (I'm sure other things have happened that equal in stupidity) my family is silly and fu
n! Christmas and New Years were a blast but it's time to return to my friends; I love them; I miss them.
I know this is random and the mumblings may not make sense to you, but I like to remember and then look forward to what is to come! I don't
know what God has in store for me but there is a Kevin Arnold or a Cory Matthews out there and no matter where he is, I'm gonna find him.
Whatever your dreams or realities may be, may you Be Blessed in your pursuit of them.
o would want to forget them? Kevin, Zack, A.C., Randy, Cory. Those were the days ladies! You could turn on the T.V. at just about any time of day and see one of these hunk-a-hunk-a-burnin' loves! Whether it was The Wonder Years, Saved By The Bell, Home Improvement or Boy Meets World, T.V. when we were younger was at it's best. I was looking back in my old yearbooks from Jr. High and High School today and just remembering what it use to be like. The thing that stuck out the most were those highlighted hearts I had drawn around the faces of the "loves of my life." Yes, that's plur
al. Apparently I was a player.I'm convinced that I only knew two guys total in Jr. High so the others were just "dream guys," like those you see pictured here. Sometimes I wish I could just go back and be a kid. I wish I could have crushes and get my best friend to find out if the guy likes me. I wish I could go spend the night at a friends house and make videos of us singing and dancing with batons and ribbons. I wish I could talk on the phone for hours and not be bothered with what I have to do. I wish I could dream innocently knowing that I had years before those dreams would be potential realities.
But alas, here I stand at the threshold of adulthood. Those dreams are more realistic, closer to realities. While I still wish I could marry Cory Matthews, or at least a guy like him, I realize that life is not like Saved By The Bell, you do have to go to class, you will be tested and the principle will not always be your best friend.
While being home it has at times felt like a task, but improvement has taken place. My family loves each other. Although no one has ever glued their head to a table (I'm sure other things have happened that equal in stupidity) my family is silly and fu
n! Christmas and New Years were a blast but it's time to return to my friends; I love them; I miss them.I know this is random and the mumblings may not make sense to you, but I like to remember and then look forward to what is to come! I don't
know what God has in store for me but there is a Kevin Arnold or a Cory Matthews out there and no matter where he is, I'm gonna find him.Whatever your dreams or realities may be, may you Be Blessed in your pursuit of them.
1.01.2006
Snakes are NOT my thing....Even fake ones
So to ring in the new year my family, including the red-head sister we have (Elizabeth), decided to have dinner in Galveston and then come home and hang out and watch the ball drop in time square. WELL, this was exciting to me because it has been about 3-4 years since Valerie and I have spent new years with our parents.
I was particularly excited because we were going to eat at the rainforest cafe on the seawalk. You see, I had never been to this place so I was a rookie amongst seasoned rainforest eaters. No one warned me. I was not warned about the noises, the thunder and lightening storms and I most certainly was not warned about the MOVING ANIMALS!!! Yes that's right the animals move!
This probably would not have been a problem had I had my first experience with one of the all but dead creatures inside the restaurant. We were seated at a table far enough away from anything that was bigger than me that once they began to move I was not quite so startled.
However, my first experience was not in the restaurant but in the store while we were waiting to be seated. The ceiling in this place was all but normal. It was decorated with trees and vines and animals...Worst of all, snakes. MOVING snakes! Did I know the snake had a motion detector? No! Did the snake give me a heart attack when I walked under it and it moved! That's an affirmative ghost writer! What the heck! It scared the fire out of me!
So after that action I was a little on edge the rest of the night. My nervousness was only fed by the "soothing" river adventure me and Valerie and Mom went on. I would like to say I acted my age but as I told Jonathan, I was way too scared to be a 22 year old. I think together Valerie and I screaming broke the sound barrier. We screamed 5 times more then the boat that went infront of us-full of elementary age kids. Sad to say it but alas, I was freaked out! Glad to get off that ride.
So as my heart rate slowly simmered we went to Moody Gardens in Galveston and walked around the festival of lights, where I had a near death experience with a penguin. After that we decided home was the safest place and the five of us came home and played a game and rang in the new year with Dick Clark in NYC.
After we all pretended we lived on the East Coast and that our New Year had already begun everyone went to bed, Elizabeth left and here I sit, alone and blogging!
Hope everyone had a great 2005 and in the year 2006...
...Be Blessed!!!
I was particularly excited because we were going to eat at the rainforest cafe on the seawalk. You see, I had never been to this place so I was a rookie amongst seasoned rainforest eaters. No one warned me. I was not warned about the noises, the thunder and lightening storms and I most certainly was not warned about the MOVING ANIMALS!!! Yes that's right the animals move!
This probably would not have been a problem had I had my first experience with one of the all but dead creatures inside the restaurant. We were seated at a table far enough away from anything that was bigger than me that once they began to move I was not quite so startled.
However, my first experience was not in the restaurant but in the store while we were waiting to be seated. The ceiling in this place was all but normal. It was decorated with trees and vines and animals...Worst of all, snakes. MOVING snakes! Did I know the snake had a motion detector? No! Did the snake give me a heart attack when I walked under it and it moved! That's an affirmative ghost writer! What the heck! It scared the fire out of me!
So after that action I was a little on edge the rest of the night. My nervousness was only fed by the "soothing" river adventure me and Valerie and Mom went on. I would like to say I acted my age but as I told Jonathan, I was way too scared to be a 22 year old. I think together Valerie and I screaming broke the sound barrier. We screamed 5 times more then the boat that went infront of us-full of elementary age kids. Sad to say it but alas, I was freaked out! Glad to get off that ride.
So as my heart rate slowly simmered we went to Moody Gardens in Galveston and walked around the festival of lights, where I had a near death experience with a penguin. After that we decided home was the safest place and the five of us came home and played a game and rang in the new year with Dick Clark in NYC.
After we all pretended we lived on the East Coast and that our New Year had already begun everyone went to bed, Elizabeth left and here I sit, alone and blogging!
Hope everyone had a great 2005 and in the year 2006...
...Be Blessed!!!
12.26.2005
Happy Season to Me!!!!
Well, it was my birthday on the 22nd and three days later it was Christmas and I must say people were good to me this year. We'll start with my birthday.After church on the 22nd I went to Sugarland to spend the night and the next day with Lauren. We had a fun night not getting to sleep until well after 3 o'clock. We saw a movie called Family Stone. It was pretty good but a definite emotional roller coaster. I laughed and cried in the same movie. Then we did what we do best and drove around for a while. Lauren is a good friend.
The next morning we woke up somewhere around 9:30ish and got ready for the day. Little did I know that my friend Clint was coming to town to spend the day with us. I was totally surprised and so excited that he was able to come and hang out. We left to go to lunch at Fuddruckers and when we got there to my utter surprise, a bunch of first colony youth group kids were there to give me a party. It was so fun! My first surprise party ever! It was great.
After the party was
over Clint, Lauren, Bryan and I went to the Cheesecake factory and had my second ever piece of chocolate cheesecake. Mmmm....mmmm....good.Soon after this I left to head back to Alvin for the 800th annual Nelson Family Open House. It was a lot of fun and I got a huge cookie cake and an awesome keyboard stand and bench for my keyboard. I am so pumped about it.
The next couple of days were awesome because I got to hang out with my nephew while everyone was out of the house. While I wouldn't say that I am quite ready for children, which is good because, I'm so far away from that, I did enjoy the time I got to spend with him. He knows my name and even preferred my comfort over Granni's at times-which is a big
deal in our family! :o) I love him he is SO cute!On Christmas Eve we had a little changed of plans. We normally go to Mike and Cathy's open house, then go Christmas light looking, then go home and open presents. This year, we opened presents at 2 o'clock and then we went to open house and we skipped the whole Christmas light looking all together- which was sad because I don't remember a
Christmas eve when we didn't go look at lights. No matter, we still had a blast. Favorite gift-Quesadilla Maker! Dinner at my house! We woke up at 5:45 Sunday morning to get our Santa gifts, YES Santa still come to my house. We got up because Jeff and April and Ty had to head to Belton around 6:30 and we wanted to see Ty get his presents.We had a lot of fun. Just another reason I love my family so much. The holidays were great. I hope you all had a merry Christmas and have a happy new year.
12.21.2005
All In The Family
Today was productive. Not productive in the sense that I got a lot accomplished, although I did manage to get a good start on Christmas presents for mom, April and Valerie, productive in the sense that I spent some good quality time with my nephew. As the house emptied out this morning around 7:30 I was awake and watching an old classic, Saved by the Bell, as I anxiously awaited the sound of an 21 month old crying because the sun finally broke through the window. However, the sound was not a cry but came in the form of a cough.
My precious baby Ty woke up coughing so, of course, I ran to his room and the cutest little boy just looked at me and smiled and stood up and the day began. We spent some time playing with the singing reindeer, sending some emails, eating breakfast at the backdoor so we could watch Duke and Elly--the dogs--playing, and laughing. Ty is precious and although I was up way before any person should be allowed to be up during their Christmas break, I welcomed the company and look forward to doing it again tomorrow.
Something about family makes me happy. I just finished reading Luke Reeves blog entry from a couple of days ago and found myself laughing along with the situation. My family is much like his- I guess. We tend to be loud, talking too loud and laughing a lot. We get stares-there are different theories as to why that is-, and we pass out smiles. I love my family.
My family goes together. God has designed the Nelson Clan in such a way that no matter the mood or the things that might have accidentally come out of our mouths before we had a chance to think about them, we can always laugh, and smile and love each other.
Mom is so sure that I am going to meet someone and fall in love and get married in the next year or two; Dad is giving me 6-7 years before that happens, regardless, whoever this lucky lad is that will enter into the Nelson world, is in for a treat because my family is cool and I wouldn't trade them for the whole entire big wide world!
Be Blessed!!!
My precious baby Ty woke up coughing so, of course, I ran to his room and the cutest little boy just looked at me and smiled and stood up and the day began. We spent some time playing with the singing reindeer, sending some emails, eating breakfast at the backdoor so we could watch Duke and Elly--the dogs--playing, and laughing. Ty is precious and although I was up way before any person should be allowed to be up during their Christmas break, I welcomed the company and look forward to doing it again tomorrow.
Something about family makes me happy. I just finished reading Luke Reeves blog entry from a couple of days ago and found myself laughing along with the situation. My family is much like his- I guess. We tend to be loud, talking too loud and laughing a lot. We get stares-there are different theories as to why that is-, and we pass out smiles. I love my family.
My family goes together. God has designed the Nelson Clan in such a way that no matter the mood or the things that might have accidentally come out of our mouths before we had a chance to think about them, we can always laugh, and smile and love each other.
Mom is so sure that I am going to meet someone and fall in love and get married in the next year or two; Dad is giving me 6-7 years before that happens, regardless, whoever this lucky lad is that will enter into the Nelson world, is in for a treat because my family is cool and I wouldn't trade them for the whole entire big wide world!
Be Blessed!!!
12.17.2005
Cinderella
Made dinner last night, chicken quasidillas, cleaned the carpet with one of those shampoo machine thingys,made a bunch of snowflakes tonight. That's about the extent of it. Oh yeah, I ran a mile on Tuesday. I have nothing to do. I read when I get bored, or I fall asleep. I'm glad to have nothing to do and I'm happy to do stuff around the house but I'm ready to go back. I am actually ready for Christmas. Ready for Jeff and April and Ty to get here, ready for mom's birthday; ready for my birthday and to see Lauren; just ready to be active.
I have been talking to Lauren since I got home, been texting her and Jonathan. Talked to Clint once and talked to Reid tonight. I have some great friends. I am so excited about the last semester of school and getting to live it up with all my friends. It'll be a blast.
I don't really have a lot to report on but I was told by a friend that I needed to write so here it is. When you rush greatness it's not always great! ;o) Anyway, when I do have something worth reading you guys will be the first to know!
Have a great weekend and Happy Holidays!
Birthday Countdown: 6 days!
Be Blessed!!!
I have been talking to Lauren since I got home, been texting her and Jonathan. Talked to Clint once and talked to Reid tonight. I have some great friends. I am so excited about the last semester of school and getting to live it up with all my friends. It'll be a blast.
I don't really have a lot to report on but I was told by a friend that I needed to write so here it is. When you rush greatness it's not always great! ;o) Anyway, when I do have something worth reading you guys will be the first to know!
Have a great weekend and Happy Holidays!
Birthday Countdown: 6 days!
Be Blessed!!!
12.04.2005
When The Sand Runs Out
He picked pecans and chased squirrels. We liked sitting on the back porch cracking pecans and throwing them at the squirrels with Granddad. There is not a person in my family who knew Granddad, who doesn't have a memory of cracking pecans and picking on squirrels with him.
The Chorus:
"I'm gonna stop lookin' back
and start movin' on
And learn how to face my fears
Love with all of my heart,
make my mark
I wanna leave something here
Go out on a ledge,
with out any net
That's what I'm gonna be about
Yeah I wanna be runnin
'When the sand runs out"
I heard this song on the way home from the funeral yesterday. I had heard it before but yesterday it became a lesson, not just a song. The rest of the song talks about not just spinning your wheels, but living life with a purpose. A few good lines:
"And I stood there thinking
as I said goodbye
Today is the first day
of the rest of my life"
AND
"And when they carve my stone
they'll write these words
'Here lies a man who lived
life for all that its worth'"
With Granddad on the mind this song obviously hit me hard. Dad talked about Granddad at the funeral and the one thing I remember Dad saying was Granddad "lived life like he was living!" I've always heard you should live like you were dying and live it up but I like the idea of living like you were living. I don't think it means to take forever to do everything but I do think it means live with a purpose and live as an example of freedom and hope. Granddad instilled this life in my father and my father and mother instilled it in me and my brother and sister.
I am so very grateful for my family and for the history of faith that we have. I praise God for the life my Granddad led and for all the many people he touched. Granddad struggled with his health and his death was not unexpected, but nonetheless, the lump is hard to swallow.
He visited people everyday, someone, anyone. He helped and served others in every area of his life. Granddad was running.
He's in Heaven now. If there are squirrels in heaven they are running for their lives because Granddad is there and he's sitting on the porch of his mansion, which probably is plain and simple with a huge pecan tree out back. He's crackin' pecans, and when one of those divine squirrels scurries by, Granddad is there to peg him with a pecan.
I'll see him again. It's just a matter of time!
Be Blessed!!!
12.02.2005
Granddad
I would like to ask you all for your prayers as my family travels and grieves the loss of my Granddad. He passed away yesterday afternoon around 2 o'clock. He was a good man who loved the Lord and served him all his life. He is home now.
Thank you for your prayers.
Be Blessed!!!
Thank you for your prayers.
Be Blessed!!!
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